Motherhood…
It’s the most important “job” I have ever had.
I have been MIA from writing blogs lately as I took a hiatus to focus on enjoying my newborn - Hudson Dean was born March 21, 2023.
Although I haven’t written about clothes or confidence lately, in six weeks, I have learned a lot.
This may be surprising as I wear sweats almost daily and find myself losing my confidence all over again. But, this is the true way to learn. I look forward to sharing more experiences along the way.
Newborn parenting, again
Being a parent is no easy task. Newborns come with their own challenges, such as sleep deprivation, nursing/feeding every 2-3 hours and just keeping a child alive 24/7, to name a few.
Most days, in the last six weeks for me, have been spent on my couch or rocking chair holding my baby. I’m usually feeding him (cluster feeding is the worst) or just watching TV as he sleeps.
Often, I will look down at my watch and another two hours go by like that, before I know it, it’s back to bed.
The days feel like they are on repeat. It all blends together. I found myself feeling lazy.
I’m not getting anything done.
What’s important?
I actively need to remind myself, and my husband, every time we hold him in our arms for hours or rock him to sleep that what we are doing is important.
The smallest tasks like changing a diaper, talking to him for tummy time or burping him - all of them are important.
As days tend to repeat, we lose our confidence.
This can be true during the newborn phase or just when you are stuck in a rut. Wake up, go to work, go to bed, repeat.
We lose that purpose because we don’t feel as productive.
It’s important to find your purpose. And in this stage in my life, being a mom is my greatest purpose.
My kitchen may not be clean and there are dishes in the sink. My laundry still needs to be done. My bed is unmade.
But, my son and daughter are so loved. I fed them. I bathed them. I held them. I laughed with them. Most days, I cry a little with them. I loved them more than they know.
I am rebuilding my confidence every day by reminding myself that these days are important.
Remember, even when you don’t feel like you are making progress or getting the things done you want, you are important.
The small things matter. It’s important.
Stay simply confident,
Kayla